ooh.

I was in the same lift as the goalkeeper of Manchester United just now...
Interestingly, I had a strange feeling that I shouldn't be wearing Chelsea's uniform this morning, so had put some other shirt on.

Deadline


Making of...


On another note - Though I think I've probably been forgotten (to self: ha, your fault for not keeping in touch), I'm alive in Kyoto.

Conference call conference call conference call <3<3<3<3<3<3

This week is going to be hell :D for me, and this is going to motivate me to work harder!
yay for simplemindedness.

I'm subinpark89 on skype.

conference call<3

FUCK SNOW.

Obama!


Ahaha people are partying in the pendelton atrium :D

I really want the limited edition of Dream "A"live, but it's sold out everywhere.

にぃのぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉ..... <-wtf subin

Yay I'm officially done with exams and papers for the fall semester :D But, I'm not looking forward to my GPA at all.

Anyways, I'm back in good old Asia! Home sweet home. weeeee~, though I must admit I miss the snow in Wellesley.

I'm happy at the moment, but I had had two angry posts planned prior to this, but ended up not posting them as I couldn't get any free internet access in the airports. The first one was meant to be "I HATE SNOW fuck snow for making my flight delayed for 3 whole hours oh yay I'm gonna miss my next two connecting flights do I have to spend a night at Detroit sobs" and my next post was supposed to be something about the thai immigration bureau. They are so ineffective.

I've slept for around 4~5 hours during the past 48 hours or so (which is quite an achievement for a healthy sleeper like me) but I feel so bouncy! Looking forward to getting used to the time difference:D

Okay. Must study for the finals. Must write the papers.
Will probably post after December 21st when I'm done with the final exams and papers and such, when I'm in back in good old Asia...


...was meant to be my post a couple of days ago (restored from draft), but I ended up not posting it. Anyways, I was coming back from the library just now, and woah behold- winter wonderland! *sleigh bells ring~ are you listening~* It's really pretty outside!!!

When I made my last post about snow, I was all impressed, merely because I hadn't seen snow for a couple of years. The snow that time was reasonable; pretty and the pathways were walkable. The amount of snow (or should I call it the level of snow?) today is incomparable to the last one.

This is insane! I can't even differentiate between the pedestrian and the road! Even worse, the stairs look like white slanted platforms. Can't tell what I'm stepping on! The feeling of sinking into the snow and brushing snow off my hair and walking along the corridors dripping with snow~ is indeed, quite pleasant, but wow, I have not seen snow like this in my entire life. Not even in Korea. It doesn't snow like this in Korea. Everything on the ground is white, powdery and cold. Literally.

I must admit I'm exhilarated at the moment, but oh gosh it's not gonna be fun walking all the way to the Academic quad tomorrow. I need to take my exam.

YAAAAAAKKKK!!! IT'S SNOWING!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

Ah. I feel weird. I'm happy but at the same time feel sort of empty... ambivalent is the right word.

UGH. This is not directed to any of you.


I'm really frustrated, please STOP abusing the word 'like' in conversations (and sometimes in lectures! *gasps in horror*) . It's ripping my ears apart argh.

Ah... I was using PolySmlt for one of the Calculus problems due tomorrow, and I started feeling a little nostalgic.  I didn't use my TI-83 during holidays and during classes (since no calc use is allowed in STEP + not recommended in class). I think the last time I used it was during the Math P3 exam. Sigh.

YAY! I'm officially a komiyavi <3

ETA: I wonder how PAL is doing.

Had my first class today <3 It was Advanced Chinese and I really liked the class. We talked about Lu Xun and his works :)

But.

But. There was one thing that bothered me.







My professor uses traditional, and I don't know a single word in traditional. T^T



ETA: Shoot I thought it was Tuesday today and missed my first Multivariable Calculus class. *shoots herself*

So, I guess I sort of settled in. Though I'm still feeling a little jet lagged.

Everything was so rushed, it wasn't really an idealistic beginning, but oh well, at least I'm here.

At the time, I was more than shocked to hear that I wasn't given a place, because I didn't meet the STEP requirement. I somehow made an assumption that I would be guaranteed a place, since I've met the two other requirements and there were quite a few students who made it even though they didn't successfully fulfill the STEP component. I thought I had a pretty good chance because math isn't the most popular field of study in the college I was assigned to. Oh well, its Cam after all.

So, because of my  immature assumption ~ caused by my arrogance and extreme self confidence, I only had a few days to get ready for college. Every single day, I was stupidly imagining myself at King's Cross, happily + stressfully doing the tripos, comfortably believing that I had another month of holiday remaining. And out of sudden I had to follow Plan US.

It was so rushed, I hadn't applied for the visa till the 22nd August, which was just 2 days before the beginning of orientation for all International students. Because of my lack of preparation, I also had to get four vaccination shots in three consecutive days.

The flight to Boston was the longest one I've ever been on, around 26 hours including the transit. I stopped at a couple of airports, Incheon International airport in Korea (it was really weird, just passing by Korea), Tokyo Narita airport, LA then the Logan international airport in Boston. It was really weird, experiencing two mornings in one day. It was afternoon, then it was suddenly night a couple of hours later, then four hours later the stewardesses were serving breakfast. I opened the window, and I was horrified to find out that it was morning again.

I had fantasies about the US since I was a kid (dunno, maybe because of Disneyland?), but strangely my reaction when I arrived in LA wasn't really "OH MY Gosh I can't believe I'm in the US, the other side of Earth, wow, *rabidly takes photos of the star spangled  banner at immigration*", my reaction was pretty mundane.

Anyways, had a hard time getting used to the time difference, the dimension of the most commonly used paper (I already miss A4) and etc. I still feel weird, physical and mental parts of Subin are not in synch. I slept for an hour for two days, and for 15 hours yesterday (starting from 4 p.m), missed four consecutive meals. I was kind of exhausted for the past two days.

At the moment, since I've missed out most of orientation, so I'm pretty much a loner at the moment. Campus is really pretty. Lovely weather (24 degrees celsius). okay dorm room. not okay double decker bed. have to sleep two metres above the ground. nice people. got shiny new laptop with vista yay. Cried a couple of times because of homesickness+missing all of you. One of the hardest parts was restraining from the phone at 3p.m, when I desperately wanted to call my parents and pour everything out, since it was around 2 a.m in Bangkok.

Aaak. Still have lots to do, classes are going to start tomorrow and its going to be so hectic. I will survive.

I had so much to say, but can't remember them anymore :(

...

Some really dramatic changes are happening, and I find it really comforting to know that we're all going through the same stage:)

THE BEGINNING OF NEO VISUALIZM LIVE IN MELON-AX WAS INCREDIBLY EXCELLENTLY AWESOMELY SO F34I3U4IN AMAZING AND SO MUCH FUN.

OH LORD. I HAD EYE CONTACT + SHOOK HANDS WITH MIYAVI. HE IS SO BEAUTIFUL I ALMOST COULDN'T ENDURE HIS PRESENCE.

I’m still having a really hard time trying to recover. I don’t think I’ll be able to fall asleep or think about anything else for the next couple of weeks.

YES. I'M INSANELY EXHILARATED.

Internet access at last! Just came back from homeland. Sort of tired :-)

Wow, there seems to be a lot of things going on here on lj that I've missed.

Just came back to Bangkok and am feeling slightly jetlagged, which is pretty pathetic, since my flight lasted for two hours only. (+an hour delayal because of the horrible weather)

I feel so refreshed communicating using written language, after nearly a month of scribbling maths on good old paper (seriously, I had dreams about math every day and probably would have one again today, which varies from light hearted revision dreams and some strikingly realistic calculus problems. I once shouted "Sixty five, Sixty five, Sixty five!" in my sleep, which was luckily heard by my sister. I say 'luckily' because I rarely sleeptalk.

Anyways, I have survived STEP, after suffering pre-exam fear all over again *sigh (of relief)*

It was extremely, super-mega-ultra shockingly difficult as expected, if the IB math exams fried my brain, this one did a great job evaporating the remaining bits. After I walked out of the British Council, even if I knew that the brain cannot be 'used up' I felt my cranial parts depleting, kindly leaving just the most rudimental system. This happened to the extent that triggered infant's wail (sebin was horrified, and mum threw me a look of concern) from my mouth and inability to use tools. eating utensils etc.

I actually enjoyed preparing for the exam, because it involves the kind of math that I've never experienced in IB. It tests your creativity and your ability to cleverly notice things, rather than applying learned mathematics into familiar patterns that have been repeated over the years. STEP does reuse some of the tricks in its papers, but I found every question new and stressful to tackle if not stimulating. I do not wish to comment my performance in the exam, since I really don't know and I do not have a good feeling, but I am more than convinced that the two papers I sat would have been enjoyable if my entire future did not depend on them (yes, I am being a little dramatic here). At some points I had some severe mental blockage my head was shooting fireballs, while there were also times when I was pleased with myself. The exam itself and the preparation really did test my motivation and dedication to mathematics, and I tried to show however much I have. Now I'll just have to wait with my fingers crossed.

Any more post-STEP thoughts? Eventhough I'm not so confident about how I did, this exam really reinforced my determination to further pursue math. It's definately gonna be super-mega-ultra shockingly tough, but I think I'll never regret having made this decision. <3


Other than this, my holidays have been pretty okay so far. Just came back from Singapore. Very short three day trip. Visited Bukit Timah for the last time (probably?), cut off my mobile service *sobs* and had my last coffee bean drink in Singapore, and many more. I just realised how beautifully organised Singapore is, everything planned out so perfectly in general. grr... Why isn't there a friggin HMV in Thailand for god's sake

MIYAVI MIYAVI MIYAVI! I got a ticket to Miyavi's The Beginning Of NEO VISUALIZM Tour ~ live in Seoul Melon AX! Oh heavens! I have mixed feelings about his new concept (but I love the new single<3), but gosh I can't wait till the 4th of August! YAY I'll be able to see him pwn his guitar in live action, YAHEY! 

Speaking of which I had a really weird nightmare where mum's friend (from Traditional Chinese medicine class), Miyavi-kun and I were in a triangular relationship, which is more than unusual because I don't look up to artists, musicians as romantic interests AT ALL. I asked him if I could be his bride in Japanese "Oyome-san ni shite kudasai" and I got rejected in the middle of the football arena (WTF). Then, mum's friend came over to escort him to the wedding hall and told me to continue buy his music to support their living expenses (such a horrible and mundane thing to say to a rejected person).  I told this to mum, and she was very amused.

Ohohoh, really behind everyone, but watched a couple of minutes of 300 on the plane. I didn't watch enough to get a grasp of the storyline, but saw enough to admire the art direction(?). I don't really feel like working out to get a nicely built upper torso, but Whoa, the overall sepia colour and the blood splattering went together really well, and this is probably the only film where I thought blood looked so luscious....*runs out of adjectives already*....really pretty, pleasurable to look at without squinting at all. Other than this, I watched an episode of "The Office," two short episodes of "My life as a teenage robot" and half of "Music and Lyrics" and a teeny bit of "Hula Girls."

I am rereading Harry Potter and am anticipating the release of the Deathly Hallows. dfaihsogfh JEDFNSK,B SHFAL ARRGH WHAT IS THERE TO WAIT AND ANTICIPATE NOW THAT THE LAST BOOK WILL BE RELEASED IN A FEW WEEKS JKAF


It's really late, but HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Nat! and HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Jeeta! Hope you both had the best birthday celebration ever!


I'm having trouble falling asleep again. grrr

Will be back on LJ on the 8th of July *keeps in touch*